At the start.

Trying to find a way to express the undeniable nerd in yourself is hard I've found. Especially if you're a little bit scared of what your friends/family/random strangers might think (like me). So, hopefully an (almost) anonymous blog might help. Even if no-one reads it and it gets lost among all the other dregs of the internet.

I think I've always been a nerd, I don't think it's something you learn or succumb to, I was a nerd from birth. I remember sitting up on a Sunday night to watch Star Trek with my dad and I guess he's the one I have to thank for my adoration of all things sci-fi. I developed an early obsession with all things Buffy, Voyager and Farscape (shocking I know). I loved science and learned things like red-shift at the tender age of 7. Unfortunately, my academic abilities haven't allowed me to follow this but that's another story.

Anyway, when I started secondary school my nerdiness had to be suppressed in order to fit in, something I'm not really proud of but such things are necessary at schools like mine. When I got to university it suddenly started to make a reappearance mainly due to the fact that I learned it's ok to like things that other people don't (shock horror). This really started with Battlestar Galactica and proceeded to Star Trek: Enterprise in swift succession. I discovered that sci-fi had much more to it than just a good story and adventure (the kind I liked when I was younger) but could encompass all the things I'd come to hold as important as I grew up.

As I finished uni I faced 2 months of unemployment and this ended up being filled with Stargate. How did I stop watching this when I was younger? It's AMAZING! And so I was introduced to a world of fan fiction, the Nerdist, The Guild and all manner of nerdy things. A lot of this was through Twitter as well. I also discovered that sci-fi fans and nerds of all kinds tend to be the nicest and most accepting community. It doesn't matter what you like, there are other people out there willing to discuss it with you. So now, 3 months on, I seem to have transformed into someone who is much more at ease with themselves and happier to have an outlet for something I have come to realise is just a part of who I am.

Well, this was supposed to be a little bit funny but has turned into more of a confessional... Next time more fan girl wannabe stuff, such as waiting up for a Twitter reply and the like...